Oh Haiii! Hello there pretties. It is I, the one who failed/biffed it while attempting to do a back flip today (it's on the list.) Ok, I only tried three times with my bro holding my legs...but it was the longest 3x of my life! But no worries, Im not giving up that easy, or evening giving up at all for the matter. Ahhh, I'm babbling. You see, the real reason I came on here was to get something off my chest that truly frustrates me;
Why do people accept the lesser version of themselves?
Why? Why do those extra thirty pounds have to be "you"?: "Oh, I guess that's just the way God made me." NO.Why does the 2nd string player make the bench a regular outing instead of striving to be a starter?: "I guess coach knows best, I'm meant to watch." NO. Why does the student think that they can't fulfill their dream career because they have no money?: "Oh, I think it's a sign that I'm not supposed to study that. Maybe I'll do something not as costly/hard." NO. NO NO NO NO NO! Why would anyone think that God wouldn't want them to be the best they can be? Why couldn't you do what you want to do? I know life can be a struggle. We've all been there. We all have trials; no one can escape them. But we can overcome them. And for me, its upsetting to see someone settle for less. Regardless of the issue. School, weight, love, social life-whatever it is, it can be done. Remember how Disney movies, and all those kid shows at such a young age would talk about the cliche' "anything is possible", "if you put your mind to it, you can do anything!" phrases? So. True!
I've got a ton of goals that I've worked on, some I accomplished, and some I haven't. But one in particular I've been thinking about since I was a little kid, and that's body image. Its a tough world out there for a girl. The body seems to be the only important thing contributing to self worth. And while that is not true, there is truth to the phrase "when you look good, you feel good." I have been consistent with attempting to reach my goal since the beginning of the year. I've endured endless comments of "why do you even bother?", "you're fine!", and "there's nothing wrong with you!" As grateful as I am to have people see me in a positive light, they just don't know. They cant see what I see, and what I see is more accurate than them. I've sweat, I've cried, I've collapsed-I've worked my tail off. To see that's it's already August with no significant difference, it's frustrating. Being the religious person I am, I first thought "Maybe this is how Heavenly Father wants me to be. Maybe I just need to accept myself that way." But that is not true. How could my Savior deny a righteous desire of mine, especially when I do my part in every aspect? How could he not help me? It was made very clear to me that accepting this is just not acceptable for me.
I accept who I am as a person, but know that I can, and will reach my goal. Why? Because I have done everything in my power to reach it, and will continue to do so. And My Lord won't abandon me. It's not in his nature, or he would cease to be God. So what's the point of this ramble? I want people who struggle with the same concept to remember to NEVER GIVE UP. Ever. Life is not about being sad. It's about being the best we can be. If you don't like something that can be changed, then change it! Don't sit around and mope about how that's just the way it's supposed to be-because its not. I will one day do a pull up, achieve the perfect push up, and even run in a sports bra. Why? Because I'm never giving up. Ever.
Because you know what they say...."Do your best, and let God do the rest."
Well, I'm off guys. I got a back flip to conquer:]
